Heliogenna: Second Day of Sunset part 2
19/12/07 23:08
So the night is here, the sun has gone, and during my work day I was taken over by a feeling that is rather rare for me, positivity. I was all over the place. Happy, welcoming, and full of energy. It's amazing what a good start to the day can do. When the lighting of the incense for Helios and the Hyperionides with an eye toward the good things in life is the start, what can go wrong?
I am writing down some stuff on a piece of easy to burn tissue paper and offering up come morning. Among the things I have to be grateful for are:
Family: It is hard to explain to you what my family is like. They nearly drove me insane, and by nearly I mean I was well on my way to the loony bin when I got away from them, but underneath all the craziness there is a group of people with hearts of gold who will do almost anything for me should I but ask it.
Friends: I am not the friendliest person in the world, but when I make a friend I am loyal and generous and kind. I like to hold on to friends for a long time, and so it is that I have to give thanks. But most of all I have to give thanks for the return of one of my best friends in the entire cosmos. She has recently returned to town to stay, and it has made me very happy to reconnect with her again. Few people know me like she does, and it makes me happy to know that at least one person in the world does.
Work: Oh, gods, I so hate my job sometimes. The idiocy of management, the constant turmoil of it, the greed and pessimism that is a constant of this kind of work, it could make Gandhi declare himself a hater. The Buddha himself could not take it. But in the end, I havenever had a job quite like this. The people I work with are, in general, quite nice to be around. There is a feeling that if we cannot rely on the management, we can rely on each other, and that is a feeling worth holding on to.
Home: I live rather modestly. But I really like my home. Everyone who enters it says they feel warm here, at home, welcome. I have never quite gotten that, since I am kinda cold and ornery, but the presence of Hestia is there and it makes for a feeling that everyone can feel.
Love: OK, I am not the best at love. I am the first to admit that, but I think I am falling in love, and it feels great.
and finally...
Snow: It's pretty.
I am writing down some stuff on a piece of easy to burn tissue paper and offering up come morning. Among the things I have to be grateful for are:
Family: It is hard to explain to you what my family is like. They nearly drove me insane, and by nearly I mean I was well on my way to the loony bin when I got away from them, but underneath all the craziness there is a group of people with hearts of gold who will do almost anything for me should I but ask it.
Friends: I am not the friendliest person in the world, but when I make a friend I am loyal and generous and kind. I like to hold on to friends for a long time, and so it is that I have to give thanks. But most of all I have to give thanks for the return of one of my best friends in the entire cosmos. She has recently returned to town to stay, and it has made me very happy to reconnect with her again. Few people know me like she does, and it makes me happy to know that at least one person in the world does.
Work: Oh, gods, I so hate my job sometimes. The idiocy of management, the constant turmoil of it, the greed and pessimism that is a constant of this kind of work, it could make Gandhi declare himself a hater. The Buddha himself could not take it. But in the end, I havenever had a job quite like this. The people I work with are, in general, quite nice to be around. There is a feeling that if we cannot rely on the management, we can rely on each other, and that is a feeling worth holding on to.
Home: I live rather modestly. But I really like my home. Everyone who enters it says they feel warm here, at home, welcome. I have never quite gotten that, since I am kinda cold and ornery, but the presence of Hestia is there and it makes for a feeling that everyone can feel.
Love: OK, I am not the best at love. I am the first to admit that, but I think I am falling in love, and it feels great.
and finally...
Snow: It's pretty.