Once again, the altars are cold, the solstice has come, and the the world of the dead, if there be such a world, is much like our own at this time. If there is any light, it is little, and in the gloom there is grey and black and a million shades of grey.

So, I have decided to make this my "Grey Day."

What does this mean?

Well, first, I have decided to meditate on a couple of concepts. What ifs, if you will. What if I had not found the Gods? What if I feared the Gods rather than felt them to be our guardians, or the guardians of life? Etc.

Now, I have also decided to examine my ambivalence, and my stubbornness about my ambivalence. It is something that would probably bore you to death, ambivalence can do that, so I won't bore you with the details, but I can give you n idea of what I mean. How many people in your world do you feel ambivalent about? How do those very people affect the way you see others and the world around you? Why do you feel ambivalent about them? What is it about me that causes me to so often be ambivalent or, sometimes, cold about the world around me? Am I a spectator or a participant in my own life?

Why did I come to this conclusion as a thing to focus on today? Easy, Yesterday I tried to focus my thoughts on the underworld Gods, the Chthonic, and the transitory. Today I will try to focus my thoughts on the transitory Gods, Gods like Hekate and Hermes. While in "Night" I will not be lighting any candles or burning any incense, so my worship of these beings will have to come in the form of meditation rather than through my normal Praxis, but in meditating on their transitory natures, I hope to also come to understand my own transitory nature. I hope to come to understand my own place on the grey spectrum between life and death.